outside of outsiders

we said:

that we could never belong

"it doesn't seem so cold..."

outside of outsiders

a lover or fighter

the sun isn't brighter

 

we know:

that you can never go home

that once you leave, you're alone

youth gone awhile

a life spent on trial...

...keep searching the dial.

 

"it'll hurt you more this time"

you keep buying what they sell

(the less they gave, the harder you fell...)

when yesterday eats you alive, what would you do to avoid being alone with yourself?

 

if you leave, then you're replaced

you'd kill them all just for a taste

(brushing the hair from your face)

"whispered dreams from a summer place"

 

tried so hard to hold onto love

clenched in your fist, it's not enough

long and ache to feel their touch

"no one ever died from wanting too much" 

scene of the crime

 you long to belong, you heard it in a song

but it all feels off

"...they were just some words i spoke!"

now the chain that makes you choke

nothing yet?

pay the debt - a bead of sweat - words you regret

the truest lies hide your truest fear:

the face you face in the fucking mirror

 

the pain we feel isn't what you feel, so fuck you

they say "the kids will say what they say"

but someone's gotta pay.

 

did you know what we do is a secret?

sacred in salt, bound in blood, and sworn to keep it?

keeping us down

don't come around

it's our gang - our side - our crew - our crowd

and look at you now.

 

the pain we feel isn't what you feel, so fuck you

they say "the kids will say what they say"...

...someone's gotta pay.

more than golden days, more than wild ways

they've got something to prove?

yeah? well, fuck them too.

 

learn to love or feel the fates:

the sharpest knives with the darkest blades

shock of steel:

now what do you feel?

"nothing at all..."

 

end of the fakes

these are the breaks

speaking your piece

clip to release

 

your perceived slight

your sense of right

choose your side:

live or lie

do or die

 

die!

 

it's us vs. them...

time to pay.

the pact

you said it yourself, we had a pact

even pricked our fingers as the final act

it was written in stone, but now the stone is cracked

salt burning our eyes.

hold the years back

...i'm still holding 'em back.

 

heaven waits at the top of the stairs

ribbon tied around a lock of your hair

"haven't you ever felt something that wasn't there?"

 

i've seen it, but has it seen me?

hard to love or easy to leave?

new troubles dampening sleeves

you say the words, but what do they mean?

 

washed soft pieces of letters still lining your pocket

crossed out my picture still set in your locket

 

one touch...

one taste...

one kiss is all that it takes. 

bruised lips...

new aches...

fast forward past the mistakes. 

 

a few more drops to tip the scales

the smell of my skin still under you nails

 

one touch...

one taste...

fast forward past the mistakes. 

 

nothing's ever enough. 

nothing left

 "saw you move a certain way"

i barely lived through yesterday

i guess that's just the price we pay...

sometimes ache just has to ache.

 

easier to forget than pry.

easier to fall than fly.

waiting for a fucking sign, but the stars just won't align!

 

they won't align.

the moon'll kill you in time.

 

is this the pain you felt, but couldn't bleed?

what you felt is now inside me.

forget the words

hurt to conceal

"just cos it's gone don't mean it wasn't real..."

 

what's deserved?

just regret?

 

i want it all until theres nothing left...

 

...there's nothing left!

 

it just wasn't meant to be.

your lips and lights in the street.

change or die

 didn't deserve a thing so pure

you're so sure that you're so sure

always poisoned by your cure

"perfect past" is a lasting lure

 

all the love you sought

paid for with the pain it brought

every crush you caught

salt in the cut from the fight you fought

 

tomorrow won't come if we don't let it

can't believe the lie: "change or die"

felt the knife as soon as you said it

 

just stay out of the light

 

why does tomorrow seem so cold?

why does the dark make us feel so bold?

nothing lasts forever!

"not even never?"

not even never!

 

yesterday just seems so far

so ashamed of what you are

soft and sweet or incomplete

felt relief in your defeat

 

but there's a pain behind the violence

shame behind the silence

kept my tongue tied

kept the knife in my side

 

feeling slighted and unrequited

"the world ain't all bad..."

it only took all i had.

the other way

you wanted so badly to believe

that you could touch the past you just can't leave

love 'em and grieve 'em

skin and suede

no point in killing if they can't feel the blade

 

look the other way or close your eyes

"kiss it goodbye"s

so infatuated with lies

 

keep on touching

breathing and blushing

 

people aren't the way you think they are

we were right about the fucking stars

 

the memory of violence in the streets

the memory of songs we used to sing

 

the shutter clicks and there's nothing to fix

 

you needed their love too, but heaven't don't need you!

 

it's true.

 

it's true!

 

clenched in my fist

listen to what i say

little distant cloud that just walks to other way.

 

"girl upstairs" in my headphones

til it ends… leave me the fuck alone 

care of cell 24

 you keep killing me in your mind

taking and breaking any vow you find

another loss for the jealous kind

familiar flaw: our fates entwined

walkman's cries; tapes rewind

skip the tracks...

leave me behind.

 

said “goodbye” to another year

two less pictures on the mirror

a drop of blood… a single tear

falling in love: your deepest fear

 

whose side are you on?

whose name do you keep?

you laid with knives every night --

they cut deeper in your sleep

 

"talkin' the way we used to talk"

"walkin' the way we used to walk"

cross out every star you grew to hate

i'd love to be the scars from twists of fate

 

stuck again.

fucked again.

i tried again.

i died again. 

"piece for a piece"

what's the worst thing i could say?
heaven seems so far from me

against my will
bleed and kill
a bitter pill
I LOVE YOU STILL

kiss it goodbye
an eye for a eye
slipped through the cracks
knives in our backs

nixed and crossed
missed and kissed mixtapes you lost

time to take back what we're owed
die to stay true to your code
only thieves could be as thick
leave behind the ugly days that made us sick

scrape and crawl, break down the wall!
the less they give, the harder you fall
shift the blame, drop the coin to call
if your love is mine, then i want it all!